Thursday, May 22, 2014


Several months ago I applied for a job, and I felt completely overwhelmed and nervous.  And then I didn't.  I just felt calm and peaceful, knowing that whatever happened would be just fine.

I learned then that several of my friends had put my name on the prayer roll at the temple.

I don't know if they have continued to do that, but I have been incredibly blessed throughout 2014 with this gift of calm.  It's beautiful.

When I tell people that we have two weddings this summer, their eyes get big, and they say, "Oh, my goodness!  How are you DOING?" and I can honestly say that I'm OK.  Landon has fought terrible depression and anxiety since the beginning of the year, and somehow everything is fine in my mind and heart.

All of this is not to say that I don't have my anxious moments.  But all I have to do is remember the sweet gift that is mine for the taking, and I think, "All I have to do is the stuff that needs to be done TODAY."  So each day is full and busy, but each day I check something off the list, and we calmly move forward.

Of course, it helps that I have family and friends who are doing all they can to help out in a million ways.  It would not be the same without them.

But since "calm" is not usually my M.O., it's nice to have it and enjoy every moment while it lasts.