Laughter

Last week I met in an interview setting with a late-20's/early 30's woman. During our visit she said, "I notice on your resume that you were the PTA president at my elementary school." I said, "I hope you weren't there when I was the president."

Later I was telling my family about this experience. Taylor said, "Wow. I remember that school. That school is pretty old."

I said, "That school was built the same year as the school I attended in 6th grade. They were brand-new that year."

Taylor's eyes got really big, and he said, "Man! That school is even older than I thought it was!"

MY President

I once laughed at someone who said she could run into Brad Pitt and hardly flinch; but bring a General Authority into the room and she would be tongue-tied and star-struck.

I laughed, but I'm exactly the same! The list of GA's and LDS Church Who's Who's I've seen while working at Church headquarters is lengthy, but something cool happened yesterday.

My Young Women President walked past my desk and said hello to me yesterday. This is the woman who was the YW general president when I was a young woman. I thought she was all that and a bag of chips. Once, in my 20's, I got to go to BYU Women's Conference. I didn't care what other classes I went to, I had to go to hers, because I loved her.

And yesterday Sister Kapp came to have a meeting with the people in PEF (Perpetual Education Fund), who "live" a few feet from me. As she walked by my desk she said hello to me. And I smiled and returned the greeting in a calm, professional, detached manner.

On the outside.

On the inside I was yelling, "Sister Kapp! Sister Kapp! It's me, Aundrea! Remember me? I was one of your young women who you never met. But you told me you loved me, and I believed you! And you told me God love me, and I believed you! Thank you, thank you for taking care of the teenage me!"

Part of me is grateful that somehow I can come up with a cool version of me. But today the bigger part of me is wishing that the inner me had taken over and hugged this gracious lady. It probably would have scared her to death, but I would feel better about it today. :)

Worries and Heartaches

When you love someone, it opens your heart to the chance of getting hurt. It also opens your heart for a lot of joy, which is why it's all worth it.

But that heartbreak thing!

A friend who holds a sweet place in my heart is getting divorced. There's a lot of garbage that goes along with that (of course!), and I am nowhere near the "epicenter" of the damage that is being done. But my friend and her family are heartbroken and spirit-broken. She told me that she has learned that there is no God. And that hurts my heart. A lot.

Another cherished friend admitted to hitting rock bottom. She has, fortunately, found ways to claw her way out of that hole. I hope that one of the ways she is doing this is by relying on God.

Is it human nature to turn away from God in times of horrible crisis?

Whatever. It hurts my heart.

Top 10 Highlights for a Day

10. Yummy spaghetti for lunch
9. Tonight my friend Stacy is teaching RS meeting. Can't wait!
8. Email from my SIL today, stating that they are looking for work in Utah. Woot! (This is in addition to my sister, who is also on the Utah job hunt.)
7. Dave invited me to ride his bus home. I said, "Right, where would I go? To my in-laws?" He said, "Well, pick your poison, I guess."
6. Devotional with Jesse today.
5. Joe's wife had twin boys yesterday. He sent pix today of Boy A and Boy B. :)
4, 3, 2, and 1. (Yup, it's that good.) Landon sent a text today. It said, "OK not that I'm having no fun here but I want to come home. I miss you guys. I miss yelling at Bri. I miss Ash being nice. I miss Mom and Dad giving of things and Tay his smartness and Bella her dumbness."

Getting All Worked Up About Nothing (?)

Our son Landon is fearless, courageous, and a bit obnoxious. I love him exactly the way he is (although we are still working on his timing and behavior in some venues).

Landon really wanted to go to the cabin in Idaho with his grandparents. He knew that no one else from our family was going to be able to go. But he asked his grandma and grandpa if he could go. His grandpa is incapable of saying the word no, even if (and maybe ESPECIALLY WHEN) he wants to. Because of their incapacity to say no to Landon, Grandma talked to me. I tried valiantly to talk Landon out of this trip. Let's be honest: the main reason I didn't want him to go was because they are not always kind to him.

After a heart-to-heart, in which I was convinced that Landon understood what I was saying, he said, "So, can I ask if I can go to the cabin?" I'm tellin' ya, the kid is fearless (and maybe a tiny bit clueless). The fearlessness is one of the things I love the most about him. Additionally, we always tell our children that the answer is automatically no if you don't ask. So I told him to go ahead.

While Landon trapped Grandpa in a different part of the yard, I had a talk with Grandma. She expressed again that Grandpa didn't want to take Landon by himself. This angered me (reference that "unkind" thing above), and I told her that it was up to them. I also asked, "If this were ANY of the other grandchildren, would this be an issue?" My sweet, courageous MIL hesitated only for a second and then admitted, "Probably not." And so I told her that if they didn't want to take Landon they would have to grow a pair and tell him themselves. Her eyebrows went way up, and I said, "We will not be the bad guys on this. Dad is notorious for not knowing how to say no. If you want Landon to hear the word no, you'll have to tell him yourself."

Sure enough, Grandpa had said yes to Landon. Grandma quickly cut in and said they would discuss it and get back with Landon.

The next day they called and told Landon he could go with them. He has been so excited! I have been terribly worried.

They left Sunday afternoon. They went as far as Idaho Falls and spent the night in a motel there. Monday they took their time getting into Victor; they got some groceries and ran some errands; and then Grandpa took Landon to "the lake", which is--I presume--the Teton River. Tuesday's text from Landon said, "I just had the best pizza in the world! I love you." I texted to see if he was having fun. He said, "Yes. Grandpa has taken me shooting."

"The lake." Pizza. Shooting.

I have to give credit and a ton of gratitude to my in-laws. They have obviously done some planning for Landon to be with them. He did some planning of his own, including taking his laptop (DVD player) and some movies. So hopefully everyone will still love everyone when the trip is over. And then I can stop worrying.

Ragnarly!

This is a picture of half of our team for the Ragnar Wasatch Back relay. We are three couples, all from our ward: MaryKay and Dan, me and Spencer, Bob and Stacy. We constituted one half (Van 2) of our team: Ragnarly! Aren't we cool? We've just received our medals at the end of a 36.5 hour, 118-mile race. We spent all that time in the car together, except for when we were each running. We shared meals, naps (thanks, Aunt Marie!), snacks, lights, jackets, many laughs, pain, frustration, and celebration together.

I can't believe I am saying this, but IT. WAS. SO. DANG. FUN.

This is Van 1 of our team. Phil was the only man in that van (he's fantastic). Standing next to him (in the blue) is Suzie, who I love. Phil and Suzie are BIL/SIL, and they live in our ward. The rest of the ladies are Suzie's friends. I wish I could tell you all their names. Suzie, maybe you can tell me the names. They were all fabulous. I think. Because I really only met them each once or twice. :)

Spencer, just taking off for his first leg. He was the All-Star Champion of our team. In fact, someone who works with Dan asked how she could get hold of him and get him on their team. Luckily, Dan kept that information classified. :) Ow, Baby! Check out those legs!

Here is me, near beginning of my first run. ("Run" is still a very subjective term.) I think I look like my mom--we should get her in a running skirt!

Thanks especially to Bob and Stacy for organizing this so beautifully. You are wonderful, and we are grateful to be your friends!

People Just Like Me

Did you know that, at the COB, we pay to receive an analog television signal? It's true. I don't know what it costs, so don't ask me. But apparently it's enough to make people start to ask, "Exactly how many analog televisions are left?"

The correct answer, my friends, is, "I DON'T KNOW!"

So the building manager asked me to send an email to all of the floor representatives, asking them to identify all the televisions on their floor, including whether they are analog or digital. You know what's coming, don't you?

That's right. So far--a mere 10 minutes since I sent the email--I've received 3 replies asking, "How do we know if it's analog or digital?"

The correct answer, my friends, is, "I DON'T KNOW!"

Accomplishment

5 miles.
58 minutes, 5 seconds.
11 minutes, 38 seconds per mile average.
All alone.

What Is Hiding in the Dark

This is interesting and a good reminder.

I have similar (but obviously, different) feelings about my chronic illness. People will say, "Oh, that's fantastic. You are well."

And I am, really. And I'm super-thankful for that.

But there is this thing lurking inside me. You can't see it, but I still know it's there. It still affects me, even though we can't see it. It still affects my thoughts and my hopes and dreams for the future. It never goes away.

I won't say I know how my friend feels, because I clearly don't. But her post today helped validate some things for me.

As a sidenote, my husband "gets it"--how I feel about this. He experiences these same things because we are so close. There is no doubt that our families are affected (albeit differently) by all of this, as well.

Which goes to show that everyone has all kinds of things going on inside them that we cannot see. Let's all be a little more tolerant today!

A Change in My Running

This morning I didn't begin my run till after 9:30. It's a lot hotter after 9:30 than it is at, say, 5:30. Just sayin'.

So I decided to try jogging with Spencer's water belt. I thought it would make me crazy, but it wasn't bad. It did rub a little on my back, but I was able to adjust the water bottles and do OK. And actually, I only used one water bottle, so I could run with just the two at my hips and be OK, I think.

I also wanted to go a different direction, so I put on Spencer's watch. I ran mainly on 3200 West till the watch beeped two miles, then turned around. That made the majority of the first half of my run uphill, so I had the downhill section on the way home (mostly). That wasn't too bad a run, actually.

Anyway---

I ran four miles in 45:39.

That is an average of 11:24 per mile, in case you care.

WOOT!